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Wednesday, May 16, 2012

The Character of Thomas - A complete surrender

And Thomas answered and said unto him, "My LORD and my God." John 20:28

My Lord and my God - is a statement of complete surrender.

Thomas realized the level of transgression he had just committed. He had doubted
his own Savior, despite all the words of the Savior, despite all the teachings about his death and rising again, despite the hundreds of miracles He had done in front of him.

All those mighty works of the Lord had been of no use for his faith, because when Thomas saw Jesus being led away, spit upon and beaten and then nailed to a lowly cross, all his faith in the Savior had vanished. How powerless the Lord seemed in the face of the tyranny of the soldiers. How can such a person, whose life was taken away from his body so cruelly, now be alive?

But all those thoughts of faithlessness vanished in an instant when Thomas saw the Lord in front of him. At once he realized the power of the Omnipotent God and the Lord of Lords who had calmed the sea by His mere rebuke and made leprosy vanish by a mere command. All the words and the works of the Lord suddenly came back to restore his faith.

His faith restored, Thomas completely surrendered before His Lord and His God.
Complete Surrender
There was not an ounce of ego left in Him.My Lord,My Master I have wronged you by doubting; despite all your training, I faltered; you will be justified in your judgment about me. My God, how sinful and horrible for me to doubt your power. I have failed you once again. Forgive me, my God, for my transgression. I completely surrender myself and seek refuge in your divine and holy Will.

May St. Thomas inspire us to surrender all our thoughts, all our actions, all our ego, our complete selves to the Will of the Master, our Lord and our God, the one and only Christ Jesus.

Character of Thomas :  My Lord and My God

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The Character of Thomas - 'My Lord and My God'

And Thomas answered and said unto him, "My LORD and my God." John 20:28

Here we see the character of Thomas fully revealed. 'My Lord and My God' is the most beautiful statement of faith ever made by man. It reveals the depth of faith that Thomas had reached to, by that time.

Not very long ago, Peter had confessed that Jesus was "Messiah, the Son of God" and Jesus had told him that the Heavenly Father had revealed this truth to Peter. In the same manner, at this solemn moment, as Thomas confessed "My Lord and My God", indeed the same Father had raised the faith of Thomas to such a great level that he was now able to see the Lord for who He was - God Himself.

Earlier, if Thomas had doubted more than the others, here we see his faith being raised even more than the others. Out of such a pinnacle of faith comes out the words "My Lord and My God". From that depth of doubtfulness, Thomas had been raised to the the heights of faithfulness. Indeed at that solemn moment, Thomas became faith personified. And as the Lord said in the case of Peter, on such a rock of faith of the Apostles is built the Holy Church, and the Devil will have no power over it.Haleluiah!

My Lord and My God - such a strong expression of faith indeed was needed from Thomas, because he was to be soon sent to the most difficult and dangerous journey to the far east to preach the Gospel and suffer for His Lord and His God. The character of Thomas was built on the rock like faith of Thomas out of which was born the Church of the East and the Catholicate that guards that Church. Perhaps that rock like faith, expressed in the words "My Lord and My God" is the reason why the Malankara Church is even today able to emanate that same uncorrupt and undefiled faith after 20 centuries, despite all adversities.

That rock like faith of Thomas continues to hold the Malankara Church today. Glory to the Lord and God of Thomas.



Character of Thomas : Held Firmly by the Lord.


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The Character of Thomas - Held Firmly by the Lord.

"Then He said to Thomas, "Reach here with your finger, and see My hands; and reach here your hand and put it into My side; and do not be unbelieving, but believing." John 20:27

Our Lord wants us to shed our unbelief and believe in Him completely. Unbelief in any form, at any level, is the greatest hindrance to the communion with the Lord. And the Lord seeks to remove our unbelief.

Here we see the Lord urging Thomas to come forward, to touch Him, feel Him, put his hands into His wounded side, do all that is needed, to overcome his unbelief. Once and for all, the Lord wishes to bridge the unbelief between Him and the unbeliever, between him and His beloved disciple Thomas.

The Lord will not let Thomas be lost. The good shepherd comes searching after the one sheep, when there was a fear the one may be lost.

St.Thomas, the Apostle of India
The fact that the Lord Himself rose to pick Thomas up and hold his faith together when it was falling apart, would have had a huge impact on Thomas's character. The Lord held Thomas in His all powerful,strong hands, not allowing the storm of unbelief to blow away Thomas. And by this act of love by the Lord, the Lord gained for us the Apostle of India and the East, strong and unshaken in His faith as seen in his eternal words uttered at the next instant..


Character of Thomas :  Invitation to Handle the Bread of Life

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The Character of Thomas - Invitation to Handle the Bread of Life.

"Then He said to Thomas, "Reach here with your finger, and see My hands; and reach here your hand and put it into My side; and do not be unbelieving, but believing." John 20:27

Here we are shown moments in time when the Lord's concern for Thomas was revealed. The Master would not allow Thomas to continue in disbelief. Thomas had a great mission ahead of him. Among all of his beloved disciples, only Thomas was not able to enjoy the joy of Resurrection yet. The Lord knew the mind of Thomas. He did not want to lose Thomas.

The Lord's love for Thomas is revealed in the words "Reach here with your finger..." No other disciple is extended this invitation. To Touch the Risen Lord! To Touch the Bread of Life. To Touch the glorified Resurrected Body! The same Lord who told Mary Magdalene not to "touch" him is now asking Thomas to do just that.

As John testifies later in his epistle, that which was from the beginning and which they(he) had "handled" (1 John 1:1), Thomas is being invited to "handle" that very same Word of Life that became manifested in humanity. This same Word of Life is being handled by the priests and High Priests and placed into our open mouths during the Holy Qurbana.

In that solemn moment, Thomas stands between the Lord and the rest of the community of Apostles as representing them on being "invited to handle" the Word of Life. True it was his original disbelief that brought this about, but the symbolic invitation is being representative of an invitation to all for "handling" the Bread of Life. Through Thomas, all were invited.

Thomas's character is being shaped by this one to one conversation with the Lord.If there was any hint of disbelief or doubt, it vanishes from the very being of Thomas during this conversation. Praise the God of Thomas for appearing there for the sake of Thomas.


Character of Thomas : Burning Desire to meet the Lord

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The Character of Thomas - a burning desire to meet the Lord

And after eight days again his disciples were within, and Thomas with them: then came Jesus, the doors being shut, and stood in the midst, and said, Peace be unto you. - John 20:26

After John 20:25, the setting in the very next verse is after eight days. Why did Christ appear next only after eight days?

St. John Chrysostom (Mar Ivanios), considered the greatest preacher of the Early Church, speaks about this time gap which is best said in the Saint's own words:

"And why does He not appear to him straightway, instead of "after eight days"? John 20:26. In order that being in the mean time continually instructed by the disciples, and hearing the same thing, he might be inflamed to more eager desire, and be more ready to believe for the future." (Homily 87 on the Gospel of John)

St. Thomas was kept in waiting for eight long days, before the Lord granted his wish of appearing before Him again, so that he may grow in the desire, so that he may become ever more eager, so that he may be completely ready to believe, and be unwavering and faithful to undertake his ardous journey of the future, to the distant lands of India.On each of these eight days, he would have again heard from the others how they "Saw" the Lord, what the Lord told them, what they asked the Lord, and what Thomas had missed.

St. John the Evangelist had a similar experience later in his life, of missing the Lord, of missing the Liturgy, of missing the company of the others, when he was banished to the island of Patmos. As a result of that, the yearning in St.John grew in his desire to be one with the Lord and the rest and because St.John missed the company of the Lord so much, the heavens and the secrets were opened to him and the Revelations of the past, present and the future were unraveled to Him, enabling Him to pen down what we have today as the Book of the Revelations.

Similarly St. Thomas missed the Lord. Those eight days might have been like eight years for Thomas. Each day would probably be in prayer and waiting for the Lord, just like the Church waits for the coming down of the Holy Spirit in preparation for the Feast of the Pentecost.

Thomas waited and prayed eagerly for the Lord to come, he had a burning desire to meet the Lord and on the eighth day he was granted His wish. May his prayer, may his wait, may his desire to be in the Lord's company also inspire us to yearn for the Lord's presence, now and for ever more.

Character of Thomas :  A representative of all Unbelievers


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The Character of Thomas - All Unbelievers


So the other disciples told him, "We have seen the Lord." But he said to them,"Unless I see in his hands the mark of the nails, and place my finger into the mark of the nails, and place my hand into his side, I will never believe." John 20: 25

The disciples were witnessing the Lord to Thomas. This is one of the early and most effective models of evangelism: Those who "saw" the Lord, witnessed Him to the rest. In this most solemn scene, Thomas becomes the representative of the "rest" who have not (yet) seen the Lord. Thomas, even though unintentionally, becomes the voice of all those who do not believe.

Thomas says it best. "I will never believe unless I see myself, unless I touch Him myself" It is the plain truth. At a very crucial point in life where doubt and unbelief challenges and threatens the faith, one has to be able to "see" with the inward eye, "touch" with the spiritual hand and "feel" the presence of the
Lord in order to believe. And to experience that is bliss, that experience is a grace, a gift, which needs to come from above, which no amount of theology can really teach.

St. Thomas represents all unbelievers
Thomas's words must inspire us to be able to "look" for the Lord - the very same Lord is available to us to see - in the Holy Church - during the Holy Sacraments. Thomas's words must inspire us to be able to "touch" and experience the Lord - when the Holy elements are placed into our mouths and when they touch our tongues and become part of our body - the very same Lord becomes one with us in Holy Qurbana so that He then works with us from the inside. Because, very truly, just as Thomas said - unless we are able to "See in his hands the mark of the nails" and are able to touch Him, experience Him - we will not be able to believe. That spiritual experience is crucial, and for that the physical participation is important. The spiritual experience often follows the physical.

- and so the Holy Church was inspired by the Holy Ghost to place the Holy Sacraments in the world - so that we all get transformed, just like our Father Thomas, from being an unbeliever to be a believer, being able to "see" and experience the Lord, in our present times and in our present lives. Praise the Lord.


Character of Thomas :  Integrity


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The Character of Thomas - Integrity


So the other disciples told him, "We have seen the Lord." But he said to them,"Unless I see in his hands the mark of the nails, and place my finger into the mark of the nails, and place my hand into his side, I will never believe." John 20: 25

"I will never believe", said Thomas. Strong words these, coming from an Apostle. Indeed words that sound rebellious and arrogant, yet they were mere protests of a pained heart. Yes it was unbelief, as the Lord points out later, but the unbelief expressed so plainly gave insight into another character trait of our
Apostle Thomas.

Thomas's integrity of character shone through these words. They expressed his mind. His face and his words were mirrors of his mind. There was no diplomacy, no tact, no craft or deceit in his thoughts. What he felt in his heart, came out in his words. Earlier on the road to Jerusalem, when the same Thomas said "Let
us also go, that we may die with Him" that was another instance of Thomas speaking his mind. Just like that day, even on this day which was the setting of this verse, Thomas spoke from his heart. That is how Thomas lived. That is how Thomas was.

The integrity of character of St.Thomas shone through
Perhaps that was the single most important factor for the Lord to make the second appearance just for Thomas eight days later. The Lord did chastise Thomas then, but Christ knew the heart of this beloved disciple, the purity of the heart, the integrity of the character compelled the Christ to come again.

"I will never believe", said Thomas, and he meant it. I keep thinking - what would have happened, if the Lord had not appeared again? Would Thomas the Apostle have moved away from the rest? In that case, what would been our fate, we who are from the far lands of India?

Thankfully for Thomas, thankfully for us, the Lord did come to Thomas. And Thomas did believe. And what a testimony to faith that belief was to be! The Church of India bears the living testimony to the faith of Thomas. Haleluiah!

Let us pray that we grow into a heart as pure as Thomas, into a character as pure, as honorable as that of Thomas, so that even in weak moments of unbelief, the Lord sees our hearts and arrives to hold us from falling.


Character of Thomas : Shaped by His Nail Marks

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The Character of Thomas - Shaped by His Nail Marks



So the other disciples told him, "We have seen the Lord." But he said to them,"Unless I see in his hands the mark of the nails, and place my finger into the mark of the nails, and place my hand into his side, I will never believe." John 20: 25

The other disciples would have, in their excitement, gone head over heels explaining their encounter with the risen Lord to Thomas. "We have seen the Lord"! expresses their jubilation and joy. They might have been taken aback to hear Thomas's response.

But Thomas's response gives an indication of what the apostle was going through.

All the disciples were plunged into deep sorrow on that fateful weekend. Their Lord and Master, whom they expected great things from, had been ruthlessly murdered on a Cross alongside two petty criminals. He who had worked great miracles in front of them, had become so weak and helpless on that fateful
Friday. They themselves had deserted him like cowards, one had betrayed him, another had denied him, others were still in hiding. Their disillusionment was unfathomable.

Then suddenly on Sunday evening, the Lord appears to the rest except Thomas. That wonderful re-union with the Risen Lord wiped away every sorrow from their hearts and they were filled with great joy! They were on top of the world, nothing could bring them down!

It was in this state of ecstasy that they encountered Thomas with "We have seen the Lord"!

However, Thomas was still in the state of deep agony and sorrow that they all were in previously. He could see the marks on the Master's hands as they were pierced with hard nails. He could hear the cry of the Lord as he hung helplessly on the Cross, abandoned by his own, forsaken by His Creation.

He wanted to see and touch the Creator's nail punctured hands. He was so overcome with grief at the Master's suffering and his own cowardice, that the witness of the fellow disciples had no affect on Him. It is from that valley of great distress that Thomas responded "Unless I see in his hands the mark of the nails...."

And in so doing, Thomas became the first apostle to deliberately seek out the physical signs of the Lord's passion. Thomas asks to see the nail marks on the Lord's hands, the pierced side, the physical signs of torture. (Even in the glorified body, he expected those signs to be present and discernible.)

The physical aspect is also crucial for us as we seek out the Lord, many centuries after the Resurrection. It is in the physical and real communion with the Lord through Holy Qurbana that we are strengthened even today.

Thomas's longing to see and feel the wounds of the Lord, and the granting of that wish later by the Lord, had an enormous impact on the character of Thomas and the other disciples, shaping their future, hardening their resolve to take on the world for Christ, as they set out on their mission of evangelism. It
was this desire of Thomas to feel, touch and experience the wounds of the Lord that sustained and strengthened Thomas throughout his journeys to the far East, even to the lands of India.

May the same resolve of our Father Thomas to want to feel, touch and experience the wounds of the Lord, inspire, strengthen and guide our lives today.

Character of Thomas : An Unyielding passion
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The Character of Thomas - An Unyielding Passion

So the other disciples told him, "We have seen the Lord." But he said to them,"Unless I see in his hands the mark of the nails, and place my finger into the mark of the nails, and place my hand into his side, I will never believe." John 20: 25

As Thomas was absent from the first meeting with the Risen Lord, the disciples told him "We have seen the Lord". It was an instance of witnessing by the rest of the Apostles to Thomas. "We have seen the Lord" conveys their faith, the conviction in their belief - that the one they had seen was indeed the Lord.
However the next sentence shows the deep rooted passion of Thomas.
Thomas is telling them - it is good that you have seen the Lord and I rejoice in your blessings - but I need that experience too, my faith cannot be because "you saw". It needs to be because of my own experience. Your eyes have seen the Lord, I need that experience too.

Thomas had not yet been given the experience of meeting the risen Lord, and this verse shows his deep yearning to be part of that solemn and heavenly experience - to "see, to touch, to experience" the Lord.

This is not stubbornness, but a unyielding passion for communion with the Lord.
And it is to seek this unyielding passion for communion with the Lord that Thomas challenges us to rise to. Do we go to Church because of our own experience of communion with the Lord or because or parents force us? Is it a mere habit or is it because "I saw the Lord"? Is it because of another person's witness or is it because of our own experience?

an unyielding passion for Christ
The powerful witness of Thomas is borne out in the Church of India and of the East. We need to understand intensity of the Apostle's desire to first be able to "experience" the Lord himself before he could believe (and before he could reach out to others). Isn't that the model of evangelism that our own Church of St. Thomas has modelled for itself? When we experience the Lord ourselves, we
cannot but live like Him, we cannot but witness Him, we are compelled to be an evangelising Church, the Church of St. Thomas.

It needs to be also noted, that if today we and others fail to see us as an evangelizing Church, the reason may well be that the original desire (and hence the experience) of St. Thomas "to see, to touch and experience" the Lord, may be lacking in us.

May the Lord of St. Thomas give us the same fire in our desire to experience the Lord ourselves as our Father Thomas had.


Character of Thomas:  Representative of all absent

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The Character of Thomas - All the absent.

But Thomas, one of the twelve, called Didymus, was not with them when Jesus
came. John 20: 24

St.Thomas
While we are not told who all were present for the meeting on that first Sunday of Resurrection with the Risen Lord, we are explicitly in this verse that Thomas was not present. Thomas, by his absence, thus becomes a representative of all those who may be absent, for a short time, or for a longer time, from the
presence of the Lord.

Our ideal must be to be with the Lord always. In spirit, we are with the Lord and we enjoy his company when we obey his commandments, when we walk in the path shown by Him. On several occasions though, we are found wanting in our spiritual
journey, we fall short. We go astray. We realize, that the Lord is not with us. We then experience the same feeling of loneliness that Thomas must have felt when he was absent, when others were enjoying the presence of the Lord.

Those are occasions for us to realize, Thomas represented us and our absence from the Lord during the Risen Lord's first meeting with the rest. When we are far off from the presence of the Lord, when our circumstances in life place us away from the Church on Sunday mornings, we can find courage in the truth that our Father Thomas embodies our absence and brings it to the Lord.

Thomas, in his absence, also represented the Church of the Gentiles, the Church he was to minister to, the Church of the Far East, including the Indian Church. Thoughts about salvation for anyone apart from the Jews, much less any one from far away lands of India, was absolutely absent from the thoughts of the little group gathered there. This may be seen as the gathering of the Fathers of the
Church minus Thomas - the gathering on the first day of Resurrection. This verse John 20:24 (Thomas) "was not with them" conveys a feeling of imperfection, incompleteness. They felt the absence of Thomas; perhaps they spoke about it amongst themselves - "wish Thomas was here!". We then see that this incompleteness was removed, they were made whole a week later, when the Lord appeared to them with Thomas present amongst them;just as the incompleteness in their awareness of the mission of the Lord, that it was indeed a mission for the entire world, was revealed to them only later in time.

That meeting a week later, then, could be seen as representing the assembly of the whole Church including the Jews and the Gentiles. Thus in a special way, we can see Thomas as representing the unseen part of the Lord's redemptive mission, hidden to them at the time - the Church of the Gentiles, to whom Thomas would be sent later with the message of the Gospel.

Thank God, the Lord of Thomas who used him to give hope to those who were absent then, who are absent now and who will be absent in future, from the Lord's presence, that they too may be found worthy to enjoy His divine company if they truly miss the Lord's presence like Thomas did.

Character of Thomas : When and where the Lord comes

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The Character of Thomas - When and Where the Lord Comes

But Thomas, one of the twelve, called Didymus, was not with them when Jesus came.
John 20: 24

As I was thinking of this verse, I could not help noticing an enticing message which I wanted to share.

Using the example of our Father Thomas, the Scripture paints to us a picture about the ways of God, about what we stand to lose by ignoring the life in the Holy Church.

The Risen Lord was wearing his glorified Body. He could walk through walls, pass closed doors, transcend time and space with ease. We are familiar with this attribute of God - of His omnipresence. We know that God is everywhere. But this understanding about God many times leads us into a false sense of reasoning that - if God is everywhere, why do I need to go to Church or participate in the life
of the Church?

Yet, as we note in this verse, Jesus in his glorified Body had come and gone. When Thomas appeared, Jesus was not there. In Thomas's absence, Christ became present. Jesus, despite his glorified body, was not present when Thomas came back that day.

Here we see, there is a time and place when the Lord "comes". Not everyone are present when He comes. Those who are absent miss the bliss of being present with the Lord. Inspite of the Omni Present Nature of the Creator, His being is manifest more fully, His presence is sensed more realistically, in certain times and places. Blessed are those who get to experience the Lord in these times and in these places.

We notice many such times and places in our lives. The Holy Church is the place central to the presence of the Lord. In the context of the above verse too, the Lord appears to the company of faithful which is the symbol of the Holy Church.

In the Holy Church, during the Holy Qurbana, when the priest invokes the Holy Spirit, the Lord "comes", fluttering as the Holy Spirit, descending from the most elevated heights of Heaven. At that solemn ocassion, are we present there or do we, (like Thomas) , miss it?

During the Holy Confession, when the priest invokes the authority he has to forgive the sins we committed, the Lord "comes" as the merciful Savior, to forgive. Are we present before the priest in repentance at this time and place, or do we make ourselves believe that going to the priest is unnecessary?

During Holy Baptism, the Holy Trinity "comes" as the loving Father to welcome and initiate the new born into the life of the Church, into the 'house of the Lord forever'(psalms 23). Do we have a tendency to delay this opportunity for the newborn?

In each of our Holy Sacraments, the Lord "comes" to perform the act of grace and bestow the gifts. Are we consciously aware of His coming and are we present to participate with Him at the place and in the time that He comes?

In the times of the Holy Fasting, when we cleanse ourselves in prayer, abstinence and charity, the Lord "comes" to live with us (Upa Vasam). Do we present ourselves to the Lord for this meeting or are we absent, thinking little of the importance of fasting?

When we take the Sacraments of the Holy Church lightly, when we fail to follow the instructions of the Holy Church regarding our traditions, when we ignore our preparations for the life in the Holy Church, we miss important opportunities to be present when the Lord "comes". Thomas missed being present when the Lord came. His words later reveal how dearly he missed it. Every opportunity lost to be in close communion with the Lord is a huge loss indeed. May the example of Thomas
serve as an important lesson for us, so that we, in our own lives, are not absent when it counts; 'when the Lord comes'.

Praise the Lord of Thomas who used the Holy Apostle to teach us.

Character of Thomas : A curious case of Absence
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The Character of Thomas - a curious case of Absence

But Thomas, one of the twelve, called Didymus, was not with them when Jesus came.John 20: 24


The Gospels do not represent an official recording of minutes of incidents. They were mostly written as after thoughts, when the writers came to realize that the Lord may not return in their lifetimes and when wrong teachings began to creep in regarding the teachings of the Lord. Yet, as they are inspired by the Holy Spirit, they provide great glimpses of the truth. So we have to be careful when we make inferences using only certain sections of the Scriptures. We need to consider the entire context, consider the intent the authors may have wished to convey, consider the human limitations of the authors, the limitations of language,limitations of translations; and weigh in the facts by looking through the lenses of the prevailing traditions at the time. We can only attempt to stitch together a vague image of the entire truth using these in our study (and pray that we do not fall, as many great have). Taking any verse out of context, is dangerous as seen in the errors of the various groups we see around us today, (unfortunately as also seen from some very respectable quarters recently)

Regarding Thomas's position among the apostles too, we need to study the Scriptures, the responses to the situation from Thomas himself and the others around him; all together. Did Thomas's position fall as a prominent apostle after that first Sunday of Resurrection because he was absent? Did anything he or those around him said or did after this incident even remotely suggest that Thomas was now in a secondary level? Far from it, we see Thomas rising to a new level of respect and awe among the Apostles soon after this incident (as we will look into shortly).

But let us spend a moment to further study this curious absence that is being spoken about so much.
v 19 does not tell us how many of the 'apostles' were present together on the first Sunday of resurrection. It just mentions "the disciples". So who all were present on that first Sunday? Luke 6:13 suggests a larger company as "disciples", and among them twelve as "apostles". So why do we restrict "the disciples" to the 'eleven' (or as some mischievously suggest - 'ten')???

The identity of all the actors involved are not always very clear - yet the big picture is what is important and that should be the take away for us. (In this context, see Luke 24:13 - the walk to Emmaus - "two of them" suggests the ones involved might have been two of the eleven, but v33 shows they were different from the eleven, but possibly very close to them.)

St. Luke 24:9 suggest that the small company of people to whom the women told the first news of resurrection was more than the apostles. "eleven, and the rest". Isn't it possible that these others also stayed on for prayer with the rest and were present when Jesus appeared on that first Sunday? Also see Luke 24:33

As per the Lord's instruction, Mary Magdalene would have come to the disciples and told them that she had seen the Lord, the same day. Did Mary go away after that or was she present? Were other women present? Luke 24: 9,10 suggest that there were other women too and that they conveyed this news to the "eleven" (so including Thomas). Did they go away after conveying the news or did they stay with them in prayer for the evening and in fear of the Jews?

From Acts 1:22 we know that the criteria for selection of Matthais as an apostle in place of the traitor was that, he was together with the rest and a 'witness' to the Lord's resurrection. This suggests that Matthais was present in several meetings of the apostles with the Risen Lord . So isn't it possible that
Matthais was present on that first Sunday? It was the day when the news about the disappearance of the body of Jesus was fast spreading among the Jews and the chief priests and all of Jerusalem and beyond, and confusion and fear was in the air everywhere. Would it not be natural for all those who had followed Christ to be close together in each other's company?

Now also consider - was Peter present on that first Sunday? We honestly do not know. Not from what the Gospel writer St.John has told us. Were any of the lesser known names like Bartholomew or Philip present? We can only assume they were. Also since it can be assumed as per tradition, that they may have gathered in the (Upper) Room belonging to Mark, was Gospel writer Mark (or his family?) present there? We do not know.

The plain truth is - in 20:24 John brought up the absence of Thomas, not to associate any secondary status to Thomas or to even suggest that the rest of the eleven were present (maybe they were, maybe they were not, John does not worry about making that explicit), but the author's intention probably was to unfold the brilliant image of the interaction of the Lord with Thomas as seen in the later verses where Thomas's amazing character is further revealed. Sadly, as many other Scriptural passages, this verse has also been hijacked by those with vested interests to suit their own agenda. But truth does not stay hidden beneath propoganda for ever.

So as we see, the Gospel writer does not specify who were present on that first Sunday. He did not have any doubt about any of the apostles being "less" or "more" ordained that Sunday. As I suggested earlier(*), the entire company of apostles were blessed, given gifts, together. Even if more than the eleven were present on that Sunday, or even if any of the eleven were absent - the tradition
of the Early Church reveals their status as the apostles and the first Fathers of the Church (with all the requisite gifts needed - like ordination, authority to forgive, baptize, teach etc), and that witness of the Holy Tradition is a great witness indeed. This status of the eleven is amply displayed in Acts 1:20
by Peter just before choosing Matthais (only Judas Iscariot's seat needed replacement, not Thomas's or anyone else's). Also as seen later Paul was a blessed Apostle with the same status as the twelve, and he came into the scene much much later.

Thus while we know Thomas was absent on that first Sunday of Resurrection, we do not really know who were present on that day. Nevertheless, it does not really matter. Praise the Lord.

Character of Thomas : Authority doubted



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The Character of Thomas - Authority doubted


But Thomas, one of the twelve, called Didymus, was not with them when Jesus came.John 20:24

The Lord, in the first meeting with the community of Apostles said -

"If you forgive the sins of any, they are forgiven them; if you withhold forgiveness from any, it is withheld." (v23) Thomas was not present when the Lord said this, so can we say that Thomas did not have this
authority to forgive sins?

Thomas professed the same rock like faith as Peter. So Matthew 16:19 applies to Thomas and the rest also as much as to Peter "I will give you the keys of the kingdom of heaven; and whatever you bind on earth shall have been bound in heaven, and whatever you loose on earth shall have been loosed in heaven." (If
it was meant only for Peter, then John 20:23 is contradicting because this authority is given not only to Peter there, but also to the rest)

If Thomas had the responsibility to "baptize", will he not have the authority to "forgive" sins, just like the rest? Thomas as a chosen Apostle had this divine authority granted by the Lord, despite being absent on that first Sunday.

Also read - Matthew 18: 18 "Truly, I say to you, whatever you bind on earth shall be bound in heaven, and whatever you loose on earth shall be loosed in heaven." Even though the Lord seems speaking more generally, this verse curiously seems directed to the apostles who have the authority to bind and
loosen. And Thomas was most definitely present on this occasion.

Thus, despite the defamation campaign, the plain truth is that the Lord granted nothing different on the first Sunday of Resurrection that was not granted before, or on subsequent occasions in the presence of Thomas. Thomas was represented by the others on that Sunday to receive the gifts from the Lord. Thomas, did not lose anything spiritually or sacramentally by his absence, nor did he forfeit his place as a prominent apostle by his absence. He was, and remained, a powerful source of inspiration, power and authority for the rest of the apostles, despite his absence on that first Sunday of Resurrection.


Character of Thomas : Descent of the Holy Spirit doubted



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The Character of Thomas - Descent of the Holy Spirit questioned


But Thomas, one of the twelve, called Didymus, was not with them when Jesus came.John 20:24

Let us further study what Christ did when he met the disciples on that first Sunday.

He breathed on them said to them, "Receive the Holy Spirit" (v22)

This was a symbolic act of bestowing the Holy Spirit on the community of the apostles whom the Lord had chosen. The important thing to note here, is the "coming" of the Holy Spirit on command by Jesus, rather than who the recipients were. (the recipients had already been chosen, had been set apart and all except the traitor Judas Iscariot fulfilled their calling)

For more visible signs for critics of Thomas, note Luke 24:49, before His ascension, the Lord asks the apostles to "stay in the city until you are clothed with power from on high" which is the Holy Spirit. They received the Holy Spirit on the day of the Pentecost. So despite the Lord breathing the Holy Spirit onto
the community of the Apostles on that first Sunday of Resurrection, yet something was missing - a fuller manifestation of the Holy Spirit was needed before they began their task of Apostle-ship. Indeed Thomas was present on Pentecost to receive the power from the Holy Spirit along with the rest. So
Thomas was asked to "go" and "baptize" and the gift of the Holy Spirit needed to achieve this were given to him on Pentecost. What else is needed? Is there a "lesser" Holy Spirit and a "greater" Holy Spirit? How much more ridiculous do we make this?

Indeed Thomas received what was needed to fulfil his tasks despite being absent on that first Sunday. Did he lose anything by his absence?

Thomas received the same Holy Spirit(the life giving Lord of all) as the rest. The same Holy Spirit we receive in our Holy Baptism. The same Spirit gives different gifts to different people. Through the Holy Spirit Thomas received the gifts needed to "go" (apostle-ship) and "baptize"(priesthood). The priesthood is implied in the Apostle-ship. There is no evidence of any assessment of Thomas being considered any less by anyone of his colleagues because of his absence that Sunday. Today's defamation of Thomas has a totally different agenda and is a new invention, that does not stand the test of scriptural scrutiny.

Character of Thomas : Apostleship Maligned


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The Character of Thomas - Apostleship Maligned


But Thomas, one of the twelve, called Didymus, was not with them when Jesus came. John 20:24

Much has been made out about the absence of Thomas from the first appearance of the risen Lord to the community of the Apostles. Those with an agenda to malign the apostle claim that because he was absent at this meeting, he was not "ordained" and hence the Church that he established does not have any
right to be independent etc. It is worthwhile to examine what actually happened in that first meeting of the risen Lord with the community of the Apostles and what conclusions we can make.

All the twelve were called by the Lord for a specific purpose, to go into the world to establish His Church. This call was initiated by the Lord, not by any quality of the disciples. The growing into this ministry was an ongoing process and was not confined to any one specific incident. Right from the time when Christ chose them, they were entrusted with this "office". Each day as they spent time with the Lord, they grew into an understanding of this responsibility. That Thomas was a chosen Apostle is not debated. Him being not
present in this first meeting does not lessen his call or authority in any way. His absence in the sacramental\spiritual level was amply made up by the rest. Else there would have been some mention about it in the Scriptures - none exist. Before and after this first Sunday, Thomas remained an Apostle wedded to his call. Tradition does not accord any secondary status to Thomas as compared to
the rest after this first Sunday. If any of the other apostles were "ordained", so was Thomas, no more, no less.

So what actually happened on that first Sunday? Did the apostles receive anything special that day that Thomas did not receive? Let us closely examine the Scriptural revelations one by one.

The Lord said "As the Father has sent me, even so I am sending you". (V21). This statement, in fact, expresses the whole idea of an Apostle - to be sent out. Thomas was not excused from this call at all because he was absent. Holy tradition and the history of Indian Christianity is a witness to that.

Compare with "All authority in heaven and on earth has been given to me. Go therefore and make disciples of all nations,baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, teaching them to observe all that I have commanded you. And behold, I am with you always, to the end of the age."
(Matthew 28:18,19,20)

Baptism in India by St. Thomas
Thomas was indeed present when Christ gave this Great Commission to the apostles(as seen in v 16). He, along with the rest were asked to
1) go, make disciples of all nations.
2)baptize them
3) teach them

Surely, we do not expect the Lord to send out Thomas without the necessary equipment and resources he would need. So it is clear that Thomas had whatever was needed (whatever resources - ordination, authority, power, charisma, gift) to accomplish these 3 tasks, and more so because Christ said "I will be with you till the end of age" - all this despite missing the first meeting that Sunday. The much talked about absence did not affect his call as an apostleship in any way.

Character of Thomas - Blessed

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The Character of Thomas - Blessed


But Thomas, one of the twelve, called Didymus, was not with them when Jesus came. John 20:24

I tread on this verse in trembling, because this innocuous verse has been the subject of much controversy in the life of Indian Orthodox Christians, thanks to Patriarch Yakub 111. Yet, with due respect to the Patriarch, I submit my humble thoughts since I cannot but touch on this topic while dealing with the Scriptural study of our Apostle. (I am of course not trained in theology and this is not an exhaustive rebuttal of any sort - just some unfiltered thoughts)

Verse 19 sets the context of the situation. The resurrected Lord appears to the assembly of the apostles and blesses them: "Peace be unto you".

The fact that Thomas physically missed this blessing is obvious. Due to reasons untold to us, Thomas was not with the assembly of the Apostles on the first Sunday of Resurrection. In fact, Thomas has been missing in action (as had most of the apostles) all through the events of the fateful, tragic, historic and
finally glorious weekend. Peter was seen for a time, John was seen in the background, not the rest of them, and indeed not Thomas.

How much Thomas himself rued not being present with the others that Sunday is seen from Thomas's words, as seen in subsequent verses.

But the important take away for posterity is to understand (in the light of a needless controversy) if there is any spiritual or sacramental significance to be attached to the absence of Thomas from the scene of this blessing to the community of apostles. (That this controversy led to more indepth study of the Scriptures is the only solace, but it is also a morbid reminder of how easily even angels can fall.)

From the time the Lord selected the twelve disciples, he trained them all, guided them all, appointed them all to be the fathers of His Holy Church. The entire group of the apostles were bound together as one. The teaching to any one was meant for all. This understanding of the "community of the apostles", rather
than as individuals, is important to understand the teachings of the Lord. "I will make you fishers of men" was meant not only for Peter and Andrew, but for the rest also.

When the Lord instituted the Sacrament of Holy Qurbana on the Passover, the entire community of Apostles were witnesses and partakers, (including Judas Iscariot). Thomas's absence from the scene of the first appearance of the Risen Lord to the community of the Apostles does not take away any part of the
spiritual and sacramental blessing Thomas received, as Thomas was represented sufficiently and appropriately by the rest, before the Lord. Each of them were representatives of the other, as they are today (how much sinful are our errors of factionalism based on the legacy of these Holy Apostles today?)

This concept of representation of each other in the community of Apostles is easily seen in the Second Appearance of the Lord when Thomas was present (v 26-29). Note that the Lord does not feel the need to repeat the act of "breathing" the Holy Spirit(v 22) to Thomas again as the Holy Act the previous
week included Thomas's full participation in absentia. These acts are divinely instituted sacraments and not empty rituals. A person once ordained is not ordained again. A person once baptised is not baptised again. If this was not the case, indeed, the all knowing risen Lord would have chosen another appropriate time for His first appearance to ensure Thomas was present with the rest for participating in the act of receiving the blessings, or at the least would have repeated the blessings when Thomas was present. But that was not at all needed as indeed Thomas was blessed in absentia.

It is the same idea that we use over and over again even today when we receive Holy Qurbana on behalf of and representing our faithful departed ones. It is the same idea that St. Paul later enumerated about baptism representing those who passed away.(1 Cor 15:29)

And to be sure - St. Paul the Apostle of the Gentiles was also not present at this scene,yet he too was blessed by the Lord through the act of blessing of the community of the Apostles.

Indeed Thomas was blessed that first Sunday, completely and perfectly, by the presence of the rest of the community of the Apostles.

Character of Thomas : Enlightened

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The Character of Thomas - Enlightened.

John 14: 1-14
Let us follow this conversation closely between the Lord and his disciples.

Thomas hears Christ saying that He is going away. The natural question comes out through Thomas's mouth. "Lord we do not know where you are going, how can we know the way?" It was a perfectly logical question about the physical limitations of not able to follow Christ to wherever He is going, if they do not
know the way. However Christ's response was beyond his wildest expectations. Probably he would have thought Christ would tell Him about how to reach a far away place, how long it might take them to reach there, how it might be a dangerous journey, what precautions to take etc.

Paradigm shifts when we see the whole
Instead, Christ response was a "paradigm shift" for Thomas (and the others). "I am the way!" sets in motion a new manner of looking at Christ and His mission on earth. Christ is speaking of a totally new dimension they were unaware of till then. He is unraveling mysteries about Himself before His disciples. He is raising their thinking up several spiritual notches.

1) Christ says He is going away.
2) When Thomas asks him, he says He Himself is the way by which they need to "walk" to reach where He is going.
3) He says that He Himself is the (same) as the Father (the Father's House is their destination).

So He is the way, He is the final destination also. He is going away, but He is being with them also the same time as the "way". He is the Omni present God! Haleluiah!

Enlightened
There are elements of truth about the Holy Qurbana in this revelation. And Christ revealed this truth to Thomas first, in response to his query and through Thomas to the rest of the disciples, and the rest of Creation.

Let us also go through an imaginary discourse which Thomas could have had with his own disciples while preaching the Gospel many years later in far away India. While explaining the mysteries of Christ to them, he might have recalled"Christ is the way! We have to walk in Christ, with Christ and through Christ, and this
we do by receiving Him through the Holy Qurbana. He has not gone anywhere, He is with us always. He is also the destination where we are heading. I know this because He Himself told me so!"

The revelation of Christ during this session which is the setting of this Scriptural passage enlightened the character of Thomas, enriching it with understanding of deep mysteries about the Son of Man. The enlightenment could have happened right when Christ revealed the mysteries to him or when the Holy
Spirit later reminded him about Christ's works.Either way, his was a character that was enlightened by the truth of Christ (just as the other apostles).

Praise the Lord of the Apostles who enlightened their characters by revealing unfathomable mysteries to them.

Part 18: Humility

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The Character of Thomas - Humility


Thomas saith unto him, Lord, we know not whither thou goest; and how can we know the way? (KJV) John 14 - 5

Let us focus on the verse, the words uttered by St. Thomas to the Lord.

"Lord" he addresses Christ, then he says "we do not know" (where you are going).

This can be such a wonderful prayer to be used again and again by us in our daily lives.

"Lord we do not know, Help us! Apart from you we are nothing. Apart from you we can do nothing!"

It is not an easy thing to say. In our lives we often are considered experts of certain areas. Our kids, our peers, yes our rivals too - look to us, look upto us; and we are expected to know answers. We are expected to solve problems. To them - it is not easy to say "I do not know - I need help"

Our ego, our "image" in the world will be shattered if we, for a moment, lower ourselves and say "Man, I really do not know this, can someone help?" So we battle on, often with disastrous results, with our little knowledge - only because our pride would not let us admit that "we do not know".

A lot of problems in this world could be solved if people accepted that they actually are not sure of what to do, that they did not know, that they needed help.

Kurielaison - Lord have mercy upon us - is a wonderful little prayer given to us.
Kurielaison is a complete submission before the Lord, and it presumes the admission that "Lord, we do not know - please help us"

St. Thomas's humility shone through
Thomas had no illusions about his dependence on the Lord. He had no problem in admitting his ignorance. He was a humble man well aware of his limitations. That is what is seen in this unassuming expression of Thomas.

It is this humility of Thomas that enabled us to get deeper understanding about the "way", indeed about Christ Himself.

Pray that more of us become like the saintly Thomas; how much more revelations can we then have of the Lord!!


Character of Thomas: Thirst for Clarification

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The Character of Thomas - Thirst for Clarification


And whither I go ye know, and the way ye know. Thomas saith unto him, Lord, we know not whither thou goest; and how can we know the way? John 14 - 4,5

Here we see a wonderful discourse happening between the Lord and his disciples. The disciples are in training - training for their ministry. The Master is explaining to them about the mysteries of the other world "In my Father's house are many mansions"(V2). Jesus assumes in the course of the session that the
disciples know more about the way "and the way you know"- but they did not. Thomas immediately confronts the Lord "No we do not know where you are going". He is a spokesman for the disciples again.
This verse reveals another important character trait of Thomas (- a trait that will become important in later contexts). Thomas yearned for clarity in his understanding, in his faith in the Lord. When in doubt, he always questioned.
This reveals the seriousness with which he took his chosen mission. He was not the silent type. He would not let go of an opportunity to learn more.He attentively listened to every word spoken by His Master and when something came up that he did not understand, he immediately questioned.

And the Lord understood the sincere and intense quest of Thomas, as seen by the immediate reply from the Lord with the clarification "I am the way, the truth, and the life".

Great was St.Thomas's thirst for knowledge
This important character element of Thomas was important as he had to deal with the challenges of his ministry in far away lands of the East later in his life. Separated from the rest, away from the world he knew, his own unshakable convictions in his faith and his die-hard will to fight for His Lord till the very end were what sustained him.

And this passage of the Holy Scriptures reveal to us how that character of unmatched will-power and amazing resilience was being built - one brick at a time - in the company of the Lord, we find Thomas the student in training - asking questions with a sincere thirst for knowledge.

Thomas should be our inspiration to always seek the truth and never hesitate to speak up and ask questions when in doubt about our faith. Sincere questions will always be answered by our Lord.


Character of Thomas : A vehicle for revelations

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The Character of Thomas - a vehicle for Revelations

Thomas saith unto him, Lord, we know not whither thou goest; and how can we know the way? Jesus saith unto him, "I am the way, the truth, and the life: no man cometh unto the Father, but by me." John 14:5,6 (KJV)

Christ is preparing the disciples for his departure and for their tasks ahead. He is also setting the scene for the revelations about Himself as the giver of life, as the Ultimate truth and the only way to the Yahweh. "I am the way, the truth, and the life"(John 14:6) is a timeless message by the Son of God to the world. It is an assurance given by the Eternal Word of God to the entire mankind. Jesus, propelled by the power and leverage provided by the Holy Spirit, who reminded the writers of the Gospel to record the words and deeds of Christ for future generations, is speaking to the entire Creation. "I am the way, the truth and the life" is a pledge given by God to mankind doomed in sin.
This message of Christ is the center-piece of many a sermons and messages delivered every day bringing hope to mankind.
St. Thomas becomes the vehicle for revelations
Let us now focus on how this message came about being delivered for posterity.Christ is preparing the disciples for his going away. At this time Thomas is seen asking the Lord "Lord, we know not whither thou goest; and how can we know the way?" (John 14:5). That question became the trigger for the grand revelation by the Savior about "The Way, the truth and the life".

Thomas became a vehicle for presenting of this wonderful message for us. Thank God for the message, praise be to the Lord of Thomas.


Character of Thomas : A keen sense of occasion


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